Ending.
X. You have me. You use me. Dainty, wilder, exclusive.
VI. You have me. You use me. Dainty, wilder, exclusive.
I am time: ten minutes before a meeting, two years of silence, a childhood spent under a maple. You have me in the small increments and in the long slow spans that shape who you are. You use me — you spend minutes on hobbies, invest years in someone’s orbit, squander an afternoon on a coffee that should have lasted a lifetime. Dainty time is a tea break; wilder time is the span of a tempest. Exclusive time is the hours reserved for oneself, or for another person, where clocks are optional. When you use me, you burn toward something or away from it.
I am a pen, not ordinary but weighted: brass barrel engraved with a single name. You twist my cap, and ink breathes into the nib like a slow animal stirring. You use me to sign letters, to blot tears into grocery lists, to draft a confession line by deliberate line. Dainty hands coax a thin script; wilder hands press harder, turning loops into knots, sending words darker as if to anchor them. Exclusive: my few strokes are reserved for the signatures that matter — leases, postcards to lovers across oceans, the first sentence of a novel kept in a drawer for three years.
I am a rule. You have me in the list of beliefs you recite at breakfast, in the way you never call before nine, in the vow to avoid small talk with strangers on trains. You use me to corral days into the foreseeable: grocery on Thursdays, texts returned within an hour, arguments postponed until Sunday. Dainty rules keep an apartment tidy; wilder rules are rigid and strange, ritualized like vows. Exclusive rules are rules for two: the one about which side of the bed is left, the handshake that means “I forgive you.” When you use me, you orient your sense of fairness.
IV. You have me. You use me. Dainty, wilder, exclusive.
IX. You have me. You use me. Dainty, wilder, exclusive.